I'm not saying it again!

Ever have a giant wave of depression and have no idea why?  That happened to me today.  And it was weird.  Like out of nowhere I was depressed.  No, really, like I walked out of 4th, went down some stairs, and BAM!  I was depressed.  I really want to know wtf caused it, you know?  If imma be depressed I want to know what I'm depressed for.  Goshh, I keep saying depressed and It's angerizing me.  Huff! -.-

Monday -.-

Third week of school and the third Monday I slept through.  What happened yesterday?  Um.. I moved to the back in my 4th ^-^ And I made my friend move back there with me.  I'm not racist or anything but I mean white people are annoying.  You know its true!  Stop denying it!  OMG!  I got another balloon!  This one had a smiley face on it :3 
What else..? -.-  Hmmmmmm....  I think that's about it?  Yeah? :D

The old me :O

I can't help myself to not write about this.  I mean, it's just something I'm very aware of.  Like, I remember about two years ago when I was obsessed with Hannah Montana, JoBros, and High School Musical, and I can't help thinking, Wtf happened to me?  I used to be so intended on finishing high school and going to college but now I have no idea what to do.  I'm not gunna blame people, but I'm not gunna say that they didn't help make me this way.  And the same with music.  And the internet! :O 
And now all I think about is like "Mannnnn.. I wish it was like the olden days."  This year has dragged on forever, and if you told me right now that I was 17 I wouldn't say your lying.  I swear I've been 16 for like three years.  That's how much crap I've been through this year.  I know this doesn't really make any sense at all, but it's how I feel.

I remember!

I finally remembered yesterday!  I remember in 4th I was effing pissed at these two white chicks that sit next too me because they were talking about me -.-  I mean, atleast get me from earshot.  AND they were copying off of me!  Also the my friend gave me a chewy bar?  and I took the smallest bite off of it and he wouldn't take it back o.o  He like threw the whole bar away and I took the smallest bite ever.
I already know what imma write about tomorrow..
Saturdays suck.
Kevinnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn! ;D

Let me sleep! D;

Don't you hate being woken up from a dream?  Really if it's a amazing one with the two effing guys you're interested in.  Gossssssssssssssssssh, and I can't remember it -.-   I don't really even remember what really happened today.. It was all a blur.  Holy crap, I don't even remember lunch.  Was it today when we were talking about Kristina's husband?  Wow.  You sleep for three hours and forget the whole day.

The hail was unnecessary..

You remember that thing, that says that when you do something wrong that God is watching and makes it rain? Yeah, well it started to hail.
It all started when I got home.  I was laying peacefully on the couch,  half-sleep, and my sisters come.  Blah, blah it's someone's birthday, blah, we're going to get a cake.  So, I decide to go for some reason.  So, we get the cake and go over my sisters house.  Dude, like let me start by saying that I freaking snapped like a twig.  Yeah so, we were waiting around for candles and like all these effing kids were like fighting, and like their moms (my sisters) were like promoting it.  And one of them sits down and asks when are we getting cake and my sister says, "Don't start that whining,"  (Ghetto voice -_-)  and pushes her.  And shes starts to cry and like just like "YOU'RE A JERK!!!!" and I go for the door.  So, she comes and says, "I didn't hit her!"  And I'm like, "You pushed her and like you haven't hit her before!"  (Worst part :O The one who was crying was the birthday girl and was turning four)  So yeah, we start fighting and my other sisters were holding me back.  And I'm like "THEIR EFFING KIDS!"  And she said something really bad, but I don't remember, so... my sisters think I'm running for her.. But no, I'm not.  So I like edge my way towards the kitchen, pulling my sister, and make the cake fall off the counter.  The screen shot of it falling off the counter will be engraved in my memory forever.
But school was AMAZINGGGGGGGGG!  I got a balloon. :3
"I was watching tv.
A commercial came on.
This chick said 'shut the front door'.
I looked like this :O!"
"But that's my word..phrase..phase-word..word phrase!"

White Pants..

Will make you ten billion million times hotter.  I really have nothing to say.  Except that I waved at Selinda like ten times today!  I'm sorry Selinda, but like when I tried to point him out to you.. That was just horrible, and obvious! :O  Like, I'm pretty sure he knows and whatnot.. That was pretty painful to go through.  I feel sorry for him now.  Holy crap, you get to sit next to him.   JEALOUSLY!
By the way, he has white pants! ;x

Again?! o_o

I hate Tuesdays and I always have.  There just always so awkward.  This spell-check sucks, it keeps saying I'm spelling 'always' wrong.  Yeah, but anyways.. He talked to me again.  I'm just like "wtf? o_o"  No.. no.. no He must be sick.  Yes!  That explains it.  Yes.. yes.. yes! <_<  That sounds bad but.. yeahhhh.  Dirty Mind!  Clean it up with orbit! -ding-  My life sucks.  I mean don't you think so since him saying two effing words too me it like the whole topic of this and the highlight of my day?  That's freaking pitiful.  I'm ashamed of myself.

Changes e_e

I hate how him saying three words to me changes my total opinion on him.  And I really hate how I'm writing about him again, because I really don't want too.  But this would kinda be boring without him.  I guess?  I change my mind too much.  I wrote this note for this dude, telling him I like him and whatnot, and yeah.. I didn't give it too him.  Because I'm retarded -.-  And so scared to see what actually happens.  I slept most of yesterday that's why this is so short :o

Abnormal ._.

What do you look forward to when you get in school?  Seeing your friends?  Class?  Lunch?  Do you want to know what I look forward tooo?  I look forward to people passing me in the hallways.  Do you want to know the worst part?  They hate me!  Imma just say it's a dude already because I'm tired of typing "they."  So yeah.. he hates me and whatnot.  So of course, he walks by me like imma part of the wall.  And I'm just like O_O  on the inside and on the outside I'm just trying to hide that I'm all like googly-eyes.  I really don't want to talk about him anymore.  But like I literally named him the effing sexiest dude in my school.  I would give him a badge but he hates me. :o  Ohh high school and it's complications.

I really couldn't believe she did that.

I forgot to mention, I lost my wand on the first day of school.  My most prized possession, of course.  Anyways, second day of school.  I really wasn't expecting anything better.  I mean, the only thing I had to look forward to was my 4th.  Atleast I actually went to lunch this day, and found my wand.  So I walk into 4th all cheerful.. the first word outta my teachers mouth, "Don't get to comfortable, I'm putting you in abc order."  OMFG.  I don't think I've ever been that mad at a teacher before.  So, of course we get seated all the way across the class from each other.  This may sound stupid but, I cried.  I mean, the only thing!  Now I just have to suffer through all my classes. 

First Day of School 0:

I was so excited.  I didn't want to sleep and I wanted to be there super early.  I was so happy to see someone I knew, even if I didn't like them.  But of course, if you're really happy about something most times it ends up in disappointment.  I'm not gunna lie, I was kinda pissed when some people didn't say "Hey" to me.  Ok.. ok.. first class!  My best friend is in it.. and he didn't say one freaking word to me.  Mhmm nice, right?  Second class.  White people.  Enough said about that.  Third class.  Pretty okay, you know?  I could deal with it. But by lunch I was so freaking mad at that point I really didn't want to go in the lunchroom.  So, what do I do?  I go the the library.  Ohh, guess what?  It's closed!  So I spend it in the bathroom!  So by fourth I was pretty much done at this point.  So I walk in and sit in the effing corner and I see my friend walking in.  I was so freaking happy that someone took interest in sitting by me.  That usually doesn't happen. So I was sitting in the corner eating cheese doodles and then I notice that everyone was staring at me.  So I ask him "Is it loud enough for everyone to hear o_o?"  He says, "It sounds like godzilla stepping on cars."  Truthfully, the best part of my day.